qotta open a new chapter...

okay so im not gonna sit here and give you a big biography of my life. but i do have to say that these past months have been like a rollar coaster ride. a ride that people tend to go on with high hopes and butterflies in there stomach and believe in the word FOREVER without any fear that that word could no longer exist between those two people.its a ride that involves two people, a big number of emotions and a strong sense of affection. yea yea its that thing called L O V E.!!! you see it on movies, hear about it in songs, read it in books, but yet one doesnt really know what that term really means once they actually expirenced that so called TRUE love story. yea i had my few share of puppy love boyfriends in highschool,ones that lasted few weeks, ones that lasted a few months,ones that my parents never even knew about ahaha, but they werent really what i called actual mature relationships.untill my recent relationship;i guess you can say that was my first REAL relationship were he got to meet my whole family,he ended up living with my auntie for a while,shared very new expirences with,lasted for i guess you can say about a year because back then we weren't going out officially yet but we strait up were both acting like it and shit. yea i guess you can say we were in love at one point, i still was...even after i found out all the shit he did behind my back.he made me believe that love was real and it would last untill eternity,he would say it to me all the time.gave me those butterflie feelings,talked about being with eachother FOREVER,how many kids we were gonna have,where we were gonna live,what cars we were gonna buy,basically our whole fakn' future. yet to find out that, that nigga was doing shit behind my back with his psyhco ex who stalked me one time at closing time when i use to work at this yogurt place.yes yes crazy as it sounds its true.thinking to myself wtf is this bitch gonna kill me now. ahaha. heard from people she had an obsession with him yet i also knew my ex didnt put a stop to any of his ex's bullshit because if not there wouldnt of been any problems thru out the relationship with her being the main topic.but yet i was in love with him and let shit slide like it was nothing, knowing that by the end of the relationship i was starting to get extremely hurt but i tended to keep my mouth shut and not mention anything because i was afraid of losing him.and well guess what everything ended out of no where when the day before things seem absolutely perfect.i was broken!but im so grateful it all happened becuz it changed me in a way i never thought it would.i grew up & learned so much from this expirence, that im not no more that girl that will keep my mouth shut and let you step all over on, i wont get fooled by any guy with there sweet talk and i wont fall for liars who seem to be true but yet so fakn fake.yea yea it was the toughest and hardest thing i ever went thru my whole life.a heartbreak that was so cold if you knew the whole story, ill leave you with your mouths open.like kanye west says "how could you be so heartless" thats what i kept thinking in my head thru the whole breakup. he was in denial so bad about his ex and saying how he would never go back with her, and all this other shit he denied doing while he was with me.but im a true believer in KARMA; what goes around comes all the way back around.and triple times as bad. and yea i know its sad to say that about my first love,but it is what it is son.

like my momma always tells me:love is blind, have your eyes WIDE open kidd(:

so here goes to a new chapter, cuz im so dam fakn ready for it(;

& yea i decided to have a blog because it seems like in here i can open myself up more than in myspace becuz you can only do so much on it. so hate it or love it, i dont give a fuck so go and kick rocks. ima keep doing my thang and best believe no one is gonna stop me.

so im an official fan of Travis Mccoy. i always liked his music, he's the lead singer of Gym Class Heroes. but after i saw him perform at the lil wayne concert, i fell in love, he's BOMB!!! plus he's fakin down i've seen some of his videos on his blog and seen pictures, dude this guy is a sweetheart too.!